Written in the Nairobi, Kenya Workshop
From This Vantage Point
From this vantage point, a wife, a mother, a grandmother, a sibling, a friend, counsellor/mentor…sound a lot right? Too many hats! When do you pick one and let the other go? Do you wear all of them? Do you play a balancing act? Oooh the pressure! But, is it really?
What determines the pressure or lack of it mmm? A good question that is!! Okay, if it is up to me to determine what is pressure and what is not, then I will choose to not have pressure. Yes, that I believe is the best decision from this vantage point.
And yet, if is not pressure then what is it? All roles rolled up into one and yet not one but many and all having different roles. I think I like this bit. I am all those but neither define who I really am! All those hats I wear privileged hats I might add. It is a privilege to be a wife because I choose to see it that way. It is a privilege and an honour to be a mom and greater still the blessing of being a grandmother. Why? Because, simply the Bible tells me so. ‘Children are a blessing and a gift from the Lord’ and ‘Children’s children are a crown to the aged…’ They are my crown and happy is the man who has a quiver full of them! So double portion, a crown and my blessing which makes me happy!!
So, are my roles a pressure? I feel it all depends on how I choose to see these roles. I will choose to see my roles as a joy, a privilege, a gift, a blessing and a source of happiness. Yes, that is the choice I will choose.
Again, from this vantage point I learn that the Lord has made a choice to bless me. I have the choice of what I will call that blessing. I have the choice of how I will allow His blessing to become in my life.
From this vantage point, I am not ignorant of what dressing a hurt knee feels like, consoling one with a failed exam, a broken friendship, a strained relationship, s sleepless night spent sponging a baby down with fever…all this anxious moments of waiting and praying for a rebellious or disobedient one…yes the path is riddled with heartaches and pain and, nostalgic moments but, but, this moments have been the blocks that have been my growth. It is this dirt that I have shaken off to grow, to bloom and to weather the storms and to burst forth into who I am, and into whom I am becoming.
Yes, from this vantage point, I like, NO I love what I am seeing but also love where am standing! When all is said and done, IT iS WORTH IT!! Every tear, every sleepless night, every anxious moment, for through it all I am never alone. Through it all I have learnt to trust in Jesus. Through it all I have learnt the power of being connected to my Maker my Lord and Savior. Through it all He has been with me and He has seen me through. Through it all, I am more than a conqueror for indeed I have conquered.